My loyal job of 2 years tried to fire me today..........
aye
..... I just don't even....
seriously.....


.....
My manager said he wasn't going to let it happen, he told them he wouldn't let them because he knows I'm a good employee
The reason they don't want me any more is because they don't want to work around my school schedule any more.
They want me to come in when ever they want me to
I have school and I CAN'T do that
They also said they don't want me to ask off any more time..... no matter what it is
basically my manager said he cant give me off weekends for cons any more or they will fire me

Now aye I could skip out on cons but I would have to kill my self
I would rather be job less and moneyless then not go to cons, I will sleep in my car at cons if I have to and not eat and not have a badge.
I don't care
I have issues and cons help me get away for just a few days so I don't go crazy
They keep me sain in this fucked up world

Every one around me needs to stop saying I need to stop going to cons because all it does is Gives me horable crippling panic attacks
I cant handle it
i don't have any thing to look forward in life other than cons
I'm not fucking jokeing.....
I said I have issues
i just cant deal with something like losing the only things that make me a normal person
People say I need to sort out my priorities.... i know what they are
Cons are #1
and Don't fucking call me a kid for saying that
I would rather not mental destroy my self slowly thank you.


So I'm looking for a new job
I'm staying with my current one but as soon as a find a new job I'm fucking GONE


TL;DR: definition of an addiction, mental brake down, almost got fired, fml

My car sploded yesterday. Well not really.

I got in my car yesterday to go to school, I put the key in an turned it, and nothing happend....
I'm like " Um ok I know its not the battery cus non of my lights were on and and my inside lights are switched off so if the door had been left open they would not have come on.

I assume the worst
I'm like omg whats wrong with my car, Dear god i have to drive to Dallas tomorrow night
FFFFFFF


I run back in the house and tell me dad my car wont start
While I was in my car trying to start it the thought that it was the starter flashed in my mind for a bit, but when my dad comes out and tries it he says my battery is dead, but I was like " it couldn't be all my electronics in my car work, it just wont turn over." I start to think its my alternator and the battery really could be dead because of that.

My dad takes me to school because we don't have the jumpers and he wants to try and jump my car.
I go to school and he goes to get the jumpers from my mom and tried to jump my car and tries to start it, nothing happens

Now i know if you have a car attached to another car with jumpers a call will start, even with a fully dead battery or alternator.
Then my dad calls me and tells me he thinks its the starter
I start kicking my self in the ass because thats totally the first thing I thought when I turned the key and my car did not start and just sat there making a clicky sound.

I call Levi and he agrees and so does my brother
So i asked Levi if he would come pull it out so we can test it. He says yeah and comes over the next day

Today he came over and we pulled out the starter, Nasty old dirty looking old thing.
We test it using jumpers and it doesn't work with mine or his car battery. So already I was thinking " This thing is dead dead dead " We hop in the car and head to Orilleys to get it tested and it is indeed dead dead dead

It died with out any warning at all so I wasn't expecting it at all.

SO I plop down $100 and get a new one.
We put it in, in I swear under 10 mins, and turn the key
Hurray my car starts :3
I'm so freaking happy
I was just freaking out, texting people for rides just in case I couldn't get my car fixed to day
I was so glad levi could come over just the day after it happened and fix my car so quick
Cars a so dumb. They always break down right before something big.
But I'm glad this happened yesterday and not today, and I'm even more glad it didn't happen when I was in Dallas. I would have been boned if my car broke down in Dallas

* hugs car * My love is fixed
Levi is my hero
Totally saved my ass

Any way now my car is working and I need to fucking pack for Anime fest
fffff I need to stop being lazy and FFFFFFFF I need to find my Cravat to my count costume.

WTF is up with cons this year,

I mean yeah Afest usually happens on a holiday, But now every con is like " Hur hur we is gonna be cool like dat too "

Anime matsuri/kamikaze where on ester weekend

And Ikkicon is on new years day

Now! Onicons doing it, And on Halloween of all things - face palm -

Texas cons
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You and your "lets put a con on every holiday" ways

So After San Japan i found out my photo was in the San Antonio paper so i went on a hunt to find one.
Today I finally got a hold of one

Check it out
( CUT!!! )

Check out my awesome new icon.
idk why but its so awesomely cute i love it for no reason

I hope so

Next song

Also check out my awesome new icon
Yes its totally Starscream
"I trust you are enjoying you pornography ... and toast.... looks delicious"

Music as a big factor in my life
and I feel music can speak the volumes my heart cant

So for the next few weeks I'm going to post songs relating to my current mood and the things I am thinking every day
Listen to them and maybe you will get a clue of whats kind of things are burred deep in my mind


The Gravity of love

Ignore the fact its an AMV this is the place I first heard this song

So I went and saw the midnight showing of transformers last night
Got home at 3 am and got 4 hrs of sleep
Wooh go me - passes out in class -

Any way the movie was amazing and the story told very smoothly
It had tons more funny jokes in it than the first one and the fight sceens where awesome and crazy

You learn tons about the transformers and why they ended up on earth in the first place

If you had reservations about seeing it because you do think it will be good, or you didn't like the first one, or what ever

Go see it. It was so freaking awesome

How music can say what I'm thinking when i can't.





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Any way
I wish a had a way to get to AX this year
I am going to AO but i just found out there is a HUGE Kuroshitsuji gathering at AX this year and i freaking wish i could go so bad
I cant afford a plane ticket and even if i could i cant even bring my new chainsaw prop for grell

Oh yeah i made a new chainsaw
take a look

GINAAA!!!
My computer is back and fixed with her new fix screen
I'm so happy right now omg
My  lovely laptop is now back in my arms

I really haven't
That' a little sad
Well I'm com barring gifts of finished cosplay

This has to be one of the most expensive costume I have ever done

This cosplay was my DREAM cosplay and I finally got around to making it and apparently I pulled it off amazingly



Or at least I think I did

Preview


( Cospolx )

So right now apollo ( my car ) is up on jacks right now and will be undriveable until Tuesday.

So here's my messed up story
I gave my car to my mom yesterday so she could go and get it and oil change and tire rotation
so she takes it to fire stone, big fucking mistake.
No one should ever go to them EVER

So she gets my oil changed and tries rotated and drives my car home
but not after the fag at the firestone tries to say my brakes are metal against metal and i need new ones, trying to scam us
half way to my house she comes to a stop at a light and suddenly apollo has no brakes and she has to slam on the peddle and bring the car to a load hard grinding stop.
So she drives it home while all the way there you can feel grinding and just the worst noises coming out of my car.
It was grinding so hard if you braked to hard the car would jerk forward and a loud screeching thud would come from the wheels.

Immediately we know its the brakes and we need to get it home and check it and see what the heck the firestone people did to my car and why i suddenly dont have brakes and my brakes are grinding

So my dad takes the wheels of and checks all the brakes on all the wheels
turns out the right side front wheels brakes are gone.
and the brake was wedged between the caliper and rotor
No not in the caliper like it is supposed to be but down wedged in to the bottom of the rotor or what ever. The little brake that fell off is ripped to bits on one side and since there was no brake between the caliper and the rotor the caliper was clamping on the rotor in order to stop the car. The caliper is ripped to bits and the rotor had chunks of metal missing and wedged in to it.

One side of the rotor was smooth and looked very clean and was fine, but the side that the caliper was grinding against is chewed to hell and is rough as hell
looked just like metal ground against metal

So now that every thing about my brakes is fucked there's is only one place to turn to to that would have any thing to do with my brakes falling off
firefuckingstone
because brakes dont just fall off,and the certainly don't fall off after being on my car for over a year and they don't just fall of from a tire rotation

Firestone fucked with my brakes
so we take my brakes apart, caliper rotor and brakes and show them what happened after we left there shop.

First thing they do it denie touching my brakes
bullshit dude because for one brakes don't fucking fall off from a tire rotation
and for two the guy that said i needed brakes had to have looked at them and messed with them to know if i did or did not have metal against metal down there.

They are lieing out there fucking ass about fucking up my car but they are going to pay
we ordered the parts to fix my brakes today and they wont come in till Tuesday and firestone better give us the money back for those parts or they are going to get ripped ten new ass holes
they dicks are lucky i wasn't the one there showing them what they did to my car

You don't ever mess with my car and then lie about fucking him up
apollo is my boy and i ain't takeing any ones shit about him

You fuck with apollo you get the very pointy end of Suger

Those fuckers better pay for all of the damages

Damn I'm so fucking pissed
I'm never going any were but klingmens ever again



TL;dr
My car is fucked up
Don't go to fire stone for any thing ever

I'm car less right now because of some dumb shit that dosnt know how to work on a car
Updates on that later

I made a big post but lj deleted more then half of it from no reason before posting it so I'll retype it later

It just ripped in two and fell in to the dark pittiful depths of my lost soul
A loud noise came from it leaveing me death, crying, and cringing in the worst pain discribable

Life is fucking crul!

I'm here at the airport waiting to get one my plane.
This fucker is huge man.
I know it's only a 737 but dick it's still huge man
I'm scared
This is the freakyest momnet of my life
God wow that's a big plane
I'm gonna crash and die I just know it
:/
Planes are big man
They are big

This storm came out of know where and suddenly its fucking hailing and going crazy and my car is suck out in the hail shit storm